I have come to a point where I really can't handle things anymore.
Many things have changed over the last few months, ever since I graduated from TP and then got myself into the working industry.
I'm not kidding that being a working adult, well, sorta, can change you.
And there's nothing wrong with changing no? But I felt like I've become a really unhappy person all over again. I really had enough of people's bullshit and trying to play it nice. Basically everyone in my life at some point of time had cheeses me off so badly but every time I tell myself to let it slide because they are one of my closest friends/family. (Obviously only these people get make me mad and get hella affected because I honestly doesn't have any fucks to give to people I don't like because I pay minimal to no attention to them.)
A part of me wants to go back to last year where I was still a happy(well, quite) person, but a part of me doesn't because I don't want to "let things slide" anymore. Call me selfish but if I don't do this, I will only the one suffering, no? I find that I even have difficulties ranting and just expressing myself because all people's gonna say is cliche consoling words like things will get better or reprimanding me for having negative thoughts. This is when I thank God for having another private portal that nobody knows, yet.
I'm just going through a rough phase, the whole transition from being a student to an adult and having to know how to take up responsibilities and deal with shits is driving me crazy, all I need now is supportive friends and family whom can make my life better during this time.
Is it too much to ask for?
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